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I could have died in this bed...
the internet said
From alcohol withdrawal
a tonic
clonic
seizure it's called.
Now
I'm scared like a child
my mind running wild
Melting out of the bed
and on to the floor
towards the door
sliding
pouring
senses roaring
Feeling myself fall
Scared
very
pinned down can't move
Scared
very
flat on my face
disgrace
may come of this
I feel it's not real but it is
real enough
Like
an hallucination
an abberation
and the chest pain
did it
The heart lock
shock
clamped tight
night fright
in negative light
a scream dream
Thought I was
dead
dread
palpitate, perspirate
Heart beating so hard about to leave my body
burst my chest.
Thoughts of an ambulance facility
prevented
by immobility
the inability
to move
pinned on my back like a wrestler
As for the rest of this
test
It was cooky, spooky
Like acid, LSD
happening to me
DT
50 years old and no HRT
Feb2005
Antibiotics
avoid alcohol
I was just thinking an opportunity
to stop drinking
for a while
a change of style
Gosh
no one said I had to meet
Hierenymous Bosch.